First day for new semester .

Awesome yah !
Pagi2 jeh dah penuh Unikl . Student baru lama , harapkan 4 lif tuh je nak ke kelas .. hahaha mana tak stuck ! :D
Tunggu2 sampai kelas kul 9.00 pagi , haaa~ First class dah datang lambat .
Kelas hari pertama , database system . Teruja kot nak study subjek neyh , dont know why yah :)
Pn Lily Seid , my lecturer . Banyak gosip pasal ma'am nih . Gerun gak dengar , hehe apa2 hal just wait and see .




After class , keluar jeh lobi . Orang pertama saya nampak , dia . Haha sumpah rindu , lama tak contact kan . Tak sempat nak bertegur pun , busy lepak ngan membe . Sepanjang hari semalam , tersenyum jeh . Even dalam kepala nih still serabot sal add drop subjek , Yes ! Sindrom semester baru . Semua ini , semester baru , perjalanan masih panjang . Welcome awesome 4th semester :D

Im right ??

You! You might type a person can love many people many times .But I was a person who believes in my life, there is only 'One', someone who I want to love and a marriage ...We live once, die once and love it ..Going away to leave you, took all the strength I had.Do not think I left you because I hate you .. Do not ..!How should I hate you, when every day I miss you, even at a time when you are by my side. At any time I remember you.

After a while we make friends, I fell down to the corner of your eye. I can not lie to my feeling .

And while I really love you,

I wander looking for a love seat in your heart. I do not find it real.

You threw it away into the sea I could not dive.

There you also the one who lit the fire and burn me in silence ..

I was very sad, when you  said that you do not know what actually you are looking for. But far beneath the surface, I think you're still not old enough to understand what is love and probably never will be adults, or perhaps you have never truly love someone.

So, all this is who I am in your heart? I know, you assume I am like a normal person in your life ...Who persuaded me to open doors in the heart ever disappoint? Who taught me that requires the sacrifice of affection? Who told me to always be honest in his own feelings?

Before I disappeared from the world of you, I want to state something that never you know.Maybe if you ask me, which I feel deep love you,This is my answer: " If one day you lost the voice, I will give my voice to speak to you again. Despite that I will be silent forever ...." "If one day you lose sight, I'll give you my eyes so that you can see my love even if that time I will be blind forever " . " And if one day you lost heart, I will give my heart so that you can live forever, even when I was no longer in the world " . Everything is for you ...

Someone has said,

"If we truly love someone, then let him go with happiness. Happiness makes us happy"

You,

Because I love you , I walked away, for your happiness. I pray that someday you'll find what you are looking for.

So that someday you will understand what the true meaning of Love.

So that someday, you will be able to know what it feels like too LOVE one and hopefully you never too late to appreciate it.

You,

I believe in God meet us,

I know there is wisdom behind all of this and I will never question it.

I also never regretted at least as long to know you, I was being sincere and honest with my feelings.

I also believe that, if true we have a mate, you will come back to me. That is not my hope, but I want to learn to accept in terms of God and even if you never go back on me, I believe, may be the best ..

Finally ...

I wish you happy with your life ...

I love you ...

Plastic, just like a barbie doll.

As plastic as a Barbie doll, that’s what my smiles, my face is like someday. This awful sad or even depressed feeling I’ve got, it’s a curse, but yet a relief. A known feeling, something I’m familiar with, something I know how to handle, just not how to prevent it from happening. They say that laughter is the best medicine, and sometimes it is. All I need to cheer up is to laugh, to find something that keeps my mind busy instead of thinking about what I’m feeling.

Forcing laughter , faking smile :)

A lot of people I have heard about and some that I know have tried to commit suicide, it’s sad, but I get them. I envy them in one way; they have the courage to do something like that. And I know that I have the same courage inside me, I’m just too much of a wimp to show it, or do something like that. I think way too much about others, how they would feel about it than I think about what I need, what I want.

I can’t even count the number of times I’ve walked up the street close to my home and walked past that blind spot, where there’s a bush that blinds you so you can’t see if there is any upcoming cars or anything. I’ve pictured it so many times, how the car comes and runs me over, but it never happens. Yes I’m selfish, I know. To only think about it makes me ashamed, but I can’t help it, wondering how much easier everybody’s lives would’ve been without my problems. They didn’t have to worry about me harming myself or anything.

I don’t like people worrying about me, but yet they always do.I remember last year, I think it was in November or something, at least it was cold outside. We had  classes, and the window right in front of the table showed the  the street, and behind it there was a really tall building, and all I ever wanted was to jump from it, to kill myself. I’ve never told anyone that. I think too much, look at everything from every angle possible, look at every option, consequence and reason. I never jumped because I knew I was going to hurt someone deeply by going away.

But every time I’ve felt down I’ve had a savior, Salman, he’s a friend of mine. He’s always there from me when I need him, and I try to be there for him too.  He’s the closest guy friend I have, he’s not fake, and he’s honest.We know each other better than anyone, he knows me better than anyone I know. He helps me with what he can, and even though he thinks he’s not helping me much at all, he’s saying exactly what I need to hear, and I don’t know what I would do without him.

Yeahh I do~ =)

It's always been about me myself and I
If all relationships were nothing but a waste of time
I never wanted to be anybody's other half
I was happy to say that our love wouldn't last
That was the only way I knew to that you

You make we wanna say
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Yeah, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before we spend like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I can live without it, I can let it go
Ooh, I did, I get myself into
You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,

Tell me is it only me
Do you feel the same?
You know me well enough to know that I'm not playing games
I promise I won't turn around and I won't let you down
You can trust and never feel it now
Baby there's nothing, there's nothing we can't get through

So can we say
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before we spend like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I won't live without it, I won't let it go
Wooh Can I get myself into
You make we wanna say

Me a family, a house a family
Ooh, can we be a family?
And when I'm old and sit next to you.

And when we remember when we said
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before we spend like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I won't live without it, I won't let it go
Just look at what we got ourselves into
You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,
Love you

Oh My Baby !

~Olin~

Meeeeeooowws ^___^

Hello peps ! This name is Olin  or Olin Adrenaline . This cutest  name is get from her future daddy ! ( lau mention name dia pun , komfem2 korag ta kenal pnye  hahaha , so abaikan yeh ) . Age  ( agak2 berape ? ) As you know , Olin nih love to play and will also engage in play fighting, with each other and with humans. ( beware with your legs , hehe ) Olin , gengster , ninja , sangat2 comel then ta suke di pegag . Nak lepas je . . . =.= ( ikut perangai apak nye lh !! ) Ok , nih ade bpe pic ragam Olin depan lensa . Kipidap ! Kipidap ! haha ~

Rawwwwws ~

Olin , with her necklace =.=

About Author

Heyy little fellow :D

Ok ! Read first , my name Nur Syahidah bte Azizan was born on 9 Disember 1989 .  Diploma'sin Multimedia (DiM) at University of Kuala Lumpur , WP and I'll further my studies aboard to Bachelor's Degree is the only dream if there is no barriers ahead Insya-Allah .

 Watching movie (addicted!) , shooting and shopping would be my priority during weekends. 

I look only to the good qualities of men. Not being faultless myself, I won't presume to probe into the faults of others.